Saying Goodbye

Recently my family lost its matriarch. My Grandmother Lois passed away in mid-August and we had to say goodbye. She'd been sick these last few months....her health had actually been dwindling since the hurricanes back in 2004. I remember thinking about how depressed she seemed after her house was destroyed in Hurricane Ivan. She lost everything...well all of her worldly possessions except the shell of her house. I remember her saying that what she missed most were her pictures. Pictures of my Grandfather who had long passed. Pictures of her children and friends who had passed over. My Grandmother lost four children before she died, two as infants and two as adults. I can't begin to imagine the heartache, how her soul ached for her babies. So in her passing, I have charged myself to LOOK FOR THE LESSON. I know, because I belive in the Creator's supreme teachings, that there is lesson in everything. Lesson in the white birds that flew above me today, lesson in the strangers that walked up to me to play with Kaden's fat chubby hands, lesson in going back to the store to pay for the things left in my grocery cart, lesson in my rushing today to get everything on my FOUR sticky notes DONE, lesson after lesson after lesson. I just have to pay attention. And there is a lesson for me to take from my Grandmother's life. Lessons from my relationship with her. Lessons from words spoken and unspoken. Everything and everyone we love must perish and leave this earth. Pay attention.